clueless

shocked-- as i still am rite now... that someone i do not know is reading my blogs. maybe i do know u zul, just that i cant recall...if u're reading this, pls lemme know who u r, thx. well started my day very lazily, was raining cats n dogs n maybe even elephants! din wanna get out of bed. so instead of getting up to revise on my work...i stayed in bed till i was 'almost' late for class, but wasnt, eheh. got my maths quiz back. tot angela wud score full marks in it. mana tau, i was the one who got full! she was pretty pissed i sensed... anyways, went for lunch after that, came back to room for a while, then went to lovena's hse with iris n her. i borrowed allot of her girlly stuff for the prom eg: blusher, earings, bag... came back at about 3, did some revision then jolin started to play with the make ups i brought back. she was trying it out on me... another girlly day it seems. went for prayer meeting at 6, back at 9 n now i'm starting to revise on my work. it's always when a big event gets closer, i seem to have plenty of time for myself(or so to say studies..)and when nothing is happening... i'm too bz for alot of things... wonder y... well, i'm really excited bout the rally tmr. hope its gonna b a blast! timothy from brats jz msged me today saying he'll come! really glad i cud meet up with my fellow brat mate! peace out

huge apple

i just ate the largest, most humungus, most enormous apple i've ever seen in my 18 years living on this earth. it was like the size of my stomach! it took me half an hour to finish it... felt like i jz finished a meal after that... but i got hungry really soon. thats all i have to say today. peace out

3 days in a blog

singing on stage was always a great experience for me. so was this one in freedom2. i din know jeff, edmond n alex were in a band--the army of three. was great having the chance to b in the same team as them. the whole thing ended so fast, but i'm glad i made some frends--kat, ben, nick, mike... i left the concert very quickly that nite, coz i had to rush for mama's bday diner. but b4 i go into the dinner thing, i jz wanna say i had fun b4 n during the concert. when we were on stage, the lights were so bright n the smoke was so thick, it was like singing in 'heaven' hahaha, can only c hands n small figures jumping to the beat. though i din really hear myself, but horny said they can hear my voice clearly. horny came with shua n peili. i also saw andrew tan. looks the same on tv. ok, now to the dinner part. everyone was there when i reached, jz waiting for the food. it was at the mei sik restaurant near shell station tmn midah. the food was ok, but dunno y this year we din have that much fun compared to last years. practically all my mama's sons were drunk. the inlaws looked blur, the kids were aggitated, n i din quite notice the ppl at other side of the room. this was like the fastest bday dinner mama ever had. well, the good thing is, some aunties n uncles noticed a change in me, hahaha. they said wah, "yuit dai yuit leng lui ah" i bet they dun even know which son's kid i was. but at least they noticed, heehee. walked back to mama's hse after that, sat around with cousins, then went home. next morning, went to church, pergi makan, then headed home. at 1pm, yeeyee came to pick me up. i jz wanted to get some advice on making-up for the prom, din know she was so serious in it. then i found out she was actually back to the make up line, instead of travelling. so we went to popo's hse, i tried out some of her dresses, but i still liked the one she gave me long time ago. looks more classy n sexy. she tot me some make up styles, though i prefer to go plain n sweet. after a few hours of girlly stuff, she sent me home, i packed, then went for dinner with laisuk's family, goh goh, n dai bak. after that dai bak came along to send me back to nilai. spent the whole nite helping grace rush for the tickets tying. 700 copies!!! so crazy. i also did some preparation for the informal presentation which i jz did in eng class jz now. i have to admit i din do much preparation but the teacher's comments on my presentation was good. she said i had the most confidence in speaking in public, heehee. k, wanna go sleep now b4 the next class starts...

feeling narcissistic

i just came back from a very discouraging econs class, n i dun have the mood to say anything rite now, however i've alot of things that r running in my mind, n i wud like to spill it all out, not in order: (most)taxi drivers r crazy, i'll never get on one alone, chinese tv series r getting better, i din enjoy madagascar as much as i expected i wud b, grace has her hp alarm set for 8am every morning even if she wakes up much later than that. i feel like eating burger king, i have super bad memory, durex is a good condom choice, i feel vain today, what should i wear for this sat's concert? my keyboard looks dull n uninviting yet its so nice to type on, dai bak's coming back tmr from auzzie, really hope he brings back uncle toby's, most girls i know watch porn but i still find it uncomfortable watching other ppl do it. ground floor toilet sux, its only worth going is coz of the hot water shower, something is so wrong with my printer, there are 7 water bottles on my desk now, i have clothes to wash, and...i wanna go pee now... peace out--

fat chocolate lady in black cheong sam

i think the new law project they jz implemented this year for sam students is a crazy thing to do! as if we dun have work for our english project, and the usual two media researches for law itself is easy stuff?!?! we have a life too! we're not zombies of the new era. n ms sharlini is really not helping! instead of helping me draft out some interview questions, she canceled some of my questions! she said she'll help in getting organizations for our interview...now she jz wants us to go look for it ourselves on the net, call them ourselves, go there n interview them with our own questions! inti pay her for wat? i know she shouldnt spoon feed us, but at least show us how to eat la.... ahhhhhhh! cant she jz help abit? well.... no use getting mad at her now. have to struggle myself la.... actually i'm fine with my work, i think..., its jz that the others r also struggling n they ask me for help. only me n abi(girl from kenya who skips evey single class of ms shalini's) can help. yer...this sux. anywayz, enuf bout work, i jz found out that one guy from high skool "tried" to hit on me n heidi, but din get to. hhaha, weird... now he found me in hi5 n friendster. funny i din know such stuff. well, these fews days i've been eating alot. so much that i dun think i have enuf money for he next few days for meals... i dunno y, but i seem to b addicted to chocolate n sweet stuff. i drank milo in the morning, cloud nine in class, another bar of choc shared with frends in econs class, bought cadburry bar after lunch, had it in between classes, stopped by at bakerry after class, bought chocolate vanilla roll n another chocolate something. had it b4 dance prac. oh man!!!!! i'm so getting fat. ok, i've gotta do something bout it. prom's in less than 2 weeks time. have to gam fei. good la now that i've spent all my money, i can skip meals.... ok, not a good idea. wat if i dun fit into the dress on that day?! hor, die. last nite grace showed me her dresses. was pretty nice. but she said black was too common, everyone will b wearing black. my dress is black too, but i like t that way, wanna b low profile la. she asked me to wear my cheong sam, to look more outstanding, but then i'll b like some old aunty at the wrong place. c how la, next week i'll bring all my 'ga chang' n get help from my girly frends here, especially lovena. too bad she's not going. this weekend and the next will b so happening! then after all these, i'll get to relax abit... n maybe eat more chocolates again, heehee, jkjk. k la going to sleep now, it's getting late. no use staying up late studying acc if ntg goes in. good nite ,reader ;)

contact lens blues

the coments i got from ppl who actually notice the difference in me after wearing contact lenses were negative, or they choose to b on the safer side, that is to jz say :"....u look different..". liz said i look sleepy n tired without my specs. kim beng said it's like i've been punched in the eyes! some didnt even know i used to wear specs! haiz... the only good coments were from lai suk who said i look nice, and another from joshua, who said i look more elegant. thats all... how sad. even my dad said i dun look like myself. but anyhow, i like my specs-less look. reminds me of my childhood days when i used to run around without specs. the only mah fan thing is it takes up a little time in the morning for me to put them on. overall i find it pretty cool. i dun have to take off glasses b4 napping or even bother to look for glasses after i wake up. i can now c clearly during bath times, heehee(i used to have vague baths). now i gotta train my fingers in handling delicate n fragile stuff.... not easy to put something in ur eye. not easy... but i did it.

saturday out

woke up early on sat, met joshua at the train station, who drove to low yat. so long din c him, n we still have so much to talk about. so much to catch up on. he's still as funny n as lame. we went straight to the mp3 shop, showed the guy my mp3 which cannot b turned on... sadly he said it has to go back to the factory for 3-4 weeks... again, i'm mp3less. once we were done, 3za called saying that she's screaming for some hong kong artists who came to low yat. i went to look for her after a short while of window shopping with joshua in sungai wang. had lunch at low yat, left the place n went to midvalley. both of us were laughing so hard in the car we were tearing when we reached mv. parked the car, went to the toilet to put my contact lens (josh said he wanted to c me in it, said i look more elegant in it, heehee, finally a good compliment--everyone said i look sleepy without my specs)then went to look for a tube top, but failed to find one in the entire mv! i also wanted to get heels, but vincci was closed, esarli's shoes looked cheap but cost a bomb! when we were about to give up, joshua finally said something usefull--"lets try nose". went there, got a good pair of heels, ngam ngam below my budget, then we went our own ways, he had to go for some musical thing in his college, n i had to go for iu day at ymca. bought the ktm ticket, n waited for more than an hour for the dumb train to come! walked across to ymca from klsentral, saw my juniors in super low cut sexy dresses! i was like, wat the... they look too old for their age. either that or i'm the one who's not mature. horny was there with peili too. we were the only ones who were decently dressed! hahaa, had fun seeing my juniors struggle for this event. reminds me of my days in skool, now its all over! muahahahaha! okla, not so bad la. left ymca at 6, horny fetched me to 3za's hse, went to mama's hse with her family. had dinner, watched jerry mcguire. i totally cannot remember the whole show though i know i watched it when i was much younger. wanted to watch electra, but then i was all sticky n stuff, wanted to go home to bathe. waited for dad to finish his football game then he sent me n charmaine home. that was my entire saturday.

bunk in at iris' a/c room

i find it easier to find time to blog during the afternoon. maybe coz everything just starts happening at nite. its just a little mah fan to blog now, coz the internet connection is really slow during the afternoon.... anyways, as from where i stoped ydy, i went for the law debate finals after law class. the hall was already half full by 4 sharp. the debate started at 4.15 after some speeches. the debate was innitially boring, coz i din c where they were heading to... it was like a mess, but it ended ok. the proposing team fought for something n the opposition another. the title is this ["one is left with a horrible feeling now that war settles nothing; to win a war is as disastrous as to lose one"-agatha christie] some were talking on war against HIV, war against ecstacy... some were talking on the nuclear war/ the afghan war... anywayz, the propossing team won, but abigail who was on the opposition won best speaker. i knew her since we were kids, she's my mom's good fren's daughter. anyways, it was kinda fun overall. they invited college students from inti subang, n form 6 students from st. paul's boys skool seremban. after that, i went straight for dance prac. this time we did it much better than b4, then was the sketch prac, which i only play a small role(klf only). joey was soooo funny with his huge actions! hahaha.left afer my part was done, came back to bathe, went to da pau food then went to iris' room to do math. i taught lovena n iris how to use the graphing prog, then i started on my own work. we had fun chatting. heehee, it's been a while since i had the 'girl talk'. really miss those times with heidi n jia wei... i finished my work at 2, we all started to laze around, then we went to bed. oh yeah...3 girls on a single bed! iris wanted to watch house of wax for a long time d, but she cant find ne one to teman her watch, haha, so we just lied down n watch from the bed. lovena slept 1st, then i dunno bout iris, but i slept about 30 mins later... the show was too boring for me... today i asked iris if she watched the whole thing or not, she said no...n she slept even earlier than me! aduh... so much for temaning her, haha. liz told me paris hilton will die at the end of the show...shud have watched the whole thing, heehee, jz kiding. well, woke up at 8.15, came back to own room n continued sleeping, then went for maths class. got my maths test back,n it wasnt so good... 18/30. but i was 2nd highest, ater angela of course. so much room left for improvement. after class went for lunch at bakery with lovena, iris n liz, then now i'm back here in my room. ok, thats all for today.

cacat blog system...

i actually blogged last nite but the blog din appear! wasted my time n energy... well, i din write much ydy also...so no biggie. had dance prac at 6 ydy, finished at 9. took us so long coz we had to finalize our formation, had fun though. some steps look simple but its kinda hard to do. will b having another prac later at 6 today. went for econs test this morning...din do good. i was, for the 1st time, scared during test. i did study, memorized important points, slept early... but i dunno y, at that time i jz cant reasemble my thoughts! i went blank, watever i studied wasnt in my head!!! so i resorted to common sence(which is wat i always do when i get stuck during exams) but then this time, teacher gave us questions with alot of economics terms which r very hard to understand.... man... i din know wat to write. if i failed this...i get to pull up my grades at the 2nd test rite??? haih... no turning back d, it's over... anywayz, later after law class, the finals for the debate will b on! yes! another exciting debate session i shall witness! will write more bout it later. will b having class at 2(acc class canceled that y i can come back to room) till then, ciou

home sweet home

went back home on sat after the debate workshop, which was pretty interesting at first, but the room was freezing towards the end, so alot of ppl left, n then, made the hall even colder! anyhow i benefited from it, din waste my sat afternoon. as i reached home, i felt soooo, sooo.... at home! hahaha, missed my room, my own bathroom.... for half a month i've been away, so nice to b home, but now i'm back in nilai again. well, today i went for the band prac at 3. today's prac was more lively. not to say that last pracs were not lively, but coz this time, the choir group joined in, bout 20 of young ppl from various churches. their job is to jump n make the whole thing happening, hahah. had fun then. kevin was also one of them. wah, sooooo long din c him, except that once in my dream... he sent me home after that, packed my stuff then went pudu for bak kut teh. the place is so unhygenic, yet so many ppl eat there, coz the food memang not bad....okay, hafta start working. i'm having an acc quiz tmr, so i cant blog for long. from this week on, i'l try my best to sleep at least b4 12.30am. it may seem hard, but no harm trying, heehee.

filling in the blanks

wow, its already 11oclock n i still feel that i din get enuf of living this day. looks like i've skiped a few days of blogging. that bcoz i've been having the busiest days of my 2 weeks stay here. tracking back to when i last stopped, i just finished telling bout the 1st half of my wednesday. i went for CF, and again was fed with the word of God by Ps Vick of Banting church.met an ex-inti student, David. we all went alson klana for dinner after CF. David's car was filled with stuff of Patrick the dog. the whole set cost 300bux! well, about more than 20 of us fellowshiped there. came back at 11 i think. did some of my maths work, then to bed. i had a horrific nite mare that nite. and jolin who was sleeping in with us said she heard me scream n kicked my blanket. grace said she heard nothing coz she was sound asleep... was a very scary experience.i din have a good day the next day, with the dream still very clear in my mind. went for the 6 hour class,then for prayer meeting. i find joining prayer meetings with cf members very edifying.after the prayer was an ex-co, committee, n cg leaders meeting. we shared alot about our experience on our spiritual growth, and wat we need each other to pray for. though i have alot to do the nex day, i din regret going for that meeting. everyone was praying so fervently for the cf rally. i cud c everyone is expecting alot from this n also sacrificing alot too. i saw the faith that the cf has that God will surely move in this event.went alson klana again for dinner with the committee members, came back to finish up my revision on my maths test n law class assignment. fortunately i did most of my work earlier, so i just had to read thru again. at 12 i went out to celebrate clara's bday. they bought a cake n we stood outside n sang the bday song from downstairs to clara's room. was a little embaressed, but then we did it in a group so it was so bad, doing it for a dear friend.after that we took her to the cafetaria, with the trashing cake, saying we were on low budget, so this was all we had. then when she blew the candle, they pushed her face to the cake, cracked an egg on her head n poured yogurt too! wah liou, soooo messy. i had a small slice of the real cake n went back to continue my work. slept at about 3.30am! got up at 7.30 then went for maths test. this time i knew most of the questions, but left out a few coz din have enuf time. hope i do well this time. went for english xtra class, left early to come back to get my cg stuff. went for cg, then had some snacked for lunch, then to law class. came back at 4, n knocked off rite after my head touched the pillow. lazed around till i got jseny, sumei(his gf), iris n liz to go pasar malam with me. ntg much diff from pasar malam of taman midah, just that there r more malay ppl selling raw meat n fish, ulk.. ate at shoplots behind the row, came back by bus too. took my bath, n here i am, blogging.

dinner at cempaka

i seldom get the chance to actually get out of inti territory n do stuff outside. ydy, i got the chance to. grace has this fren called jolin. she's a marketing student from nilai international.she stays there, i think, but she always comes here to look for grace n her frends. so she's like my 2nd roomie. she's very frenly, can drive n i cud just click with her easily. last nite she asked me if i wanted to go for dinner, i said yeah(thinking that we'll b eating at dinning hall) but then when we walked out she turned rite to walk to the car park. she said she's taking me out to makan. she asked me to call liz too(she knows i always eat with her), then she picked up her fren from china at block J n we left. that was my 2nd time eating at that place in cempaka. the 1st was with horny's roomate n his frends- when i was the only girl there... we saw evangel n his frend's there. later hiin loong n kim beng came too- gom ngam gom kiu. the food was ok only, but its the experience of going out to makan la. well, as for today... ntg much happened. went for the ever boring maths class, angela was 'fishing' beside me. i was tempted to join the SAM science class which were also having maths class, but i din, heehee. went for lunch after that then back to room, hoping to c jer online, but still ntg of him... so i just studied for my law class ass on fri, then watched phantom of the opera. it was okler. very unique show. i cannot help but just notice the props they use. well, gotta go for cf now.

part 2

so where did i stop at my previous blog? oh ya, saturday after noon... well, i just had late dinner at melati with the whole gang of cfers. da pau-ed food for clara, she came over to have a chat with me. she told me she n joey were back together again, and i wasnt suprised. however, i just got a news ydy that they broke up AGAIN. man... wat r they trying to do la? haiz, newayz... after the chat, i continued with my work, while chatting with eugene- an old fren of mine. met him at heidi's church camp i went for in year 2001 i think. after that we just chated on msn. and as we were chatting, he asked me out for a drink, n i said its kinda impossible coz i'm in nilai, n he's in pj. then he asked me how to get here n stuff then he said "ok, c u in about 45 mins time" and he went offline. i was like"what the?!" so i tot it was a joke, finished up my work, and went to bed. just b4 i closed my eyes, he called me n said he's in inti nilai, "so where do i wait for u?" i went "what the?!" again. so i asked him to park his car, n i walked out to meet him. wah, he's now so 'big sized' compared to 4 n a half years ago. i brought him into the dinning hall mamak, n he had a drink(i din coz i just brused my teeth) we chated till 3.30am! though we were interested in alot of different things but we just chatted... i was suprised that he'd drive all the way here just to chat, but it was nice seeing him again after such a long time. later, i went to sleep at 3.45am, and got up at 8.15 for church. went to banting church. had a nice time. ps christopher long was preaching, and his wife, sherline made the best nasi lemak i ever had! seriously. came back at about 1.20, got to learn more guitar chords in the bus. was so sleepy when i came back, but i had to leave for pd. packed some stuff, then mom, dad, charmaine, justine, n clemence came to pick me up. we got into our rooms and changed to go play at the beach. we wanted to go for kayaking(is that how u spell it?) but then the recreation guy said the tide wasnt high enuf. so we played beach volley ball instead. oh b4 that, we played sand fight! hahaha, all the girls were against clemence. i tot only snow ball fights existed but i din know sand fight was that much fun also, haha. had buffet dinner there. finished it with durians! as usual, cant really move after dinner. we walked around the hotel. dad showed us one part where i've never been to--the ball room. well, i've been in it, but not the waiting rooms behind it, it was so spooky then. later we went karaoke till 1 something, then droped dead back in our rooms. next morning, i had to stuff myself with food coz i knew i din have time for lunch. i had omelette, waffles, porridge, baked beans, sausages, bacon, ham, pancakes, hashbrown, strawberry juice and... i forgot wat else, but i know i was stuffed. went back hostel, was a little late for accounts class. went for dance prac at 6 then had dinner in my room. well, sounds like i had a great week end eh? well, for me i'd say 'thumbs up', but i'm begining to extremely miss someone....

my saturday in hostel

woke up to the noise from my alarm clock at 8.45 this morning. din wanna get up at 1st coz it was drizzling n it was sooooo cozy n cooling(yes, at the same time) under my blanket. but then i had to drag myself to the toilet to wash up. left the room when they started to call... was a little late. we started off with worshiping God n an opening prayer. oh ya b4 that i learnt how to play the guitar. G, C, D major, and A minor. heehee... i 4got wat time we started the telematch coz we had to give evangel all our stuff that cant get wet. the ppl in my team were liz, ying dee, joey, alwyn, johnny, jason, sally, and me. we din do so well on the 1st game(bible quiz) coz we werent quite ready n evangel shooed us to the next station b4 our time was up(not fair...) 2nd game was in block E, station master:clara! it was a fun guessing game, we scored highest. 3rd station, flour game. we fooled around after the game. we also got the highest points. 4th stop: basket ball....in the rain!!! but we scored the highest also. last stop, water balloons. station master: kim beng! we scored the highest also, muahahaha. kimbeng kept throwing the remainding balloons straight to me! we had a blast then, ahaha. as all 3 groups gathered back at starting point, we had to finish up by putting up pieces of paper to form a puzzle, n the pieces was all over the place.... had to run so far! after that we had a group foto behind block E n the games committee threw water balloons n water from the 3rd floor while they were snapping the cam n all of us posing. wah, soooo zha dou... the telematch ended there when we were given our prizes (my group got 2nd-lost alot of points in the 1st game) then after that they all played the traditional 'game' here--trashing! they just grap hold of someone and everyone go pile on him, then the others will take water and pour from the top, or on the person on target. so funny. then we went back to bathe, came out for lunch, at pizza hut. then i went with cheryl and gang(had to, coz i was following her car) to buy poles for the banners. came back at about 3 somehting 4. helped them sew the banners(did a good work with carl on sewing the toughest banner among the 5 banners), then came back to room at 6. slept for about 20 mins, then now i'm studying for maths test next week, well...got bored so i blogged loh, heehee. wonder wats jer doing now...?thats all for now. ciou

a week just went by

one week...just one week, went by just like that. so many things are coming up and i'm so excited. finally my english project is running smoothly, not like the previous one on surrogate mothers. and my law project is also moving. tmr is cf telematch day! four more weeks is cf rally, and 5 more practices will be the cheras churches youth concert... it was fun helping in the banner painting. i've never done that b4. it's also very fun dancing. i din have mucsle pulls when i went jogging, hahaha, i'm fit baby, fit! muhahah... well...gotta go now, wanna try finishing the whole star wars movies b4 i go for the latest one.

friend with a million bfs

went for a refreshing jog with iris n lovena after a 7 hour straight class today. after jogging, we went to lovena's house to rest, looking thru most of her stuff. woah, she has soooo many expensive perfumes! gucci rush, davidoff, ralf lauren... she pointed out the ones given to her by her bfs. i asked her how many bfs she had, she said he cant count!then she showed me the pic of her current one n said she dun like him anymore now... i was like.. o..k... then i went thru her shoes. all the ellegant ones. saw this pair of boots. very nice. she's jz so rich man!!! after pestering around, i went back with iris, then went for a short cg leader's meeting n then out for dinner with iris at the new restaurant. dint like the food there. saw the SAM science gang there. seems so nice to b in a gang of classmates. not like my class... so seperated. i do mix with all of them but they all go different ways... anyhow, i'm happy with the people around me. marcuz is still depressed coz of his hp, he said he had too many pics n memories he had there that he still cant let go. well, life goes on. n i've so many work to do. gotta go.
"just as one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long n so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the ones open for us."-alexander graham bell