so near yet so far

there r alot of things that i feel r very ironical. they seem to b so close physically but the presence of it is very far. for example: i tot horny wud b a great company since he's studying here in nilai, but then he seems to b further n not so close to me. it's like he has so many things that he wants to tell me but he jz wont. i feel closer to jia wei even though she's at the other side of the world. and the activities lined up here for me->planet shakers is coming to nilai, FGA is having an event on the same day, CHC is also having another that weekend... n all these i cant go... it's always times when i'm so free till i rott at home starring at the ceiling fan, wondering if it would one day fall on me or not, and days when i'm so jam-packed with projects n homeworks that those cool events start coming up. well... anyhow i'm still enjoying life. its always getting more n more exciting. anywayz, i had fun at cf today. was backing up for kim beng for worship. most of the worship crew were sick, hahaha, such timing. but then it went fine. i did one solo part with my nose block! yeah... it was cg day so we were splitted up into our own cgs, n we had to design a poster for our group. then i realized, i was the only girl in the team, n the design we made was so... un-girl-y, haha. the others groups were filled with colors n drawings. ours was jz a black door with a question mark on it. behind the door we quoted a verse from the bible. thats it. hahha, but i think it's very genuine, very original... well, i jz hope more girls will b put into my cg... it'll b nicer. till i write again, ciouz..