Monday, January 18, 2010

Something's missing.

It’s not helping when everyone around you are off to work and u’re left at home, with the internet and cover letter templates with job search websites.

Once bitten twice shy. I guess I’m now more fearful of the jobless situation than before because I’ve been bitten by it last year. But what else can I do but keep fighting this battle with my eyes wide open?

Why do I love the media industry? It’s so fierce, cold and cruel. I don’t know how to produce a good resume, when I feel that I’m not good enough for companies out there. I don’t think I have skills to offer. But since I’ve come this far, I might as well type out the naked truth of my noobness and pride myself of my skin’s thickness.

I’m really grateful for all those around me who are helping me through this. In spirit and in asking high and low for vacancies. I just hope that this time, it’ll be less painful.

How do I see God in the midst of desperation? How do I sincerely pray for providence when the faith fuel is running low? How do I bow before Him empty, with no emotion, no feelings, no thoughts? Something is missing. Something really important is missing.

First love.